Week 2, Day 5
I used to think social media was the problem. I used to think if I just destroyed my smartphone, or logged off all of my social media accounts, that I would be fine and all of my problems would go away, and I would get what I want. But it’s not that easy.
At school when I was a junior, I remember seeing people on their smartphones, and frankly how much I didn’t like them. Noticing that common theme where they all look at their smartphones too much and care about it even more, I’ve been trying to do the opposite.
But I had to change the way I used it. Balancing it, and making it to where I’m not addicted to it. You know, nosurf.
And I made some progress too. Where other kids would probably get really angry and might even cry if their smartphone was taken or broken, I would be slightly inconvenienced at worst. And that may be a good thing, but it can also be a bad thing. I have an iPad, but I don’t really use it that much. So maybe it’s just “oh I have an iPad. I can just use that.”, but then I can just use it as a backup smartphone once I finally switch to a flip phone, but who knows. It could mean I’m more addicted than I thought.
It’s more likely in my opinion, that the real reason why tech companies are simply want money. And the more people use it, the more money they get. Simple as that.
Think about it, would you rather get more money and get more people to use your app? It doesn’t really matter to Suckerberg if his app is causing thousands of people to be worse off mentally and even physically, just as long as he’s making money. That’s what matters.
And that’s the thing I don’t like about these trending social media apps. You may be more “accessible” and it would be easier to connect to people, but they were made with the intention of getting everyone addicted. In a perfect world, I would love for a facebook-like app where you could connect to people post stuff, and send messages. All that Jazz, and have it be the least addicting it can possibly be. Making this website itself look like dopamine-rush-24/7 dot com. But that would mean less money. So chances are, it wouldn’t last very long.
But I did meet a beautiful girl, and even got to first base. We haven’t started anything yet…but I wish I could. I realized that I had a little bit of the “jealous boyfriend” type. Wish I could just snap my fingers and have that gone. But the truth is, with something so good that can happen. It’s hard for me to risk letting that go. But then it can go anyway since I’m that kind of person when it comes to relationships. Wish I can talk to some of the guys on here who have been through this.