I have tried to get my internet and computer usage under control for over a decade now. Nothing really seems to work long term. I can ride the wave of motivation for a week or two and then I’ll binge for a month or so, or until I’m disgusted with myself. Delayed gratification is the name of the game and I suck at it.
This week I spent over 7 hours per day on average surfing the web. This number has been increasing over the last few weeks and that is a bad sign. On a longer timescale I think the average is about the same, however. There have been better weeks, there have been worse months.
Keeping a public journal of this kind is something I’ve never really done. I’m mostly interested in seeing if it has any effect on my ability to refrain from mindless surfing. It would be a way to be accountable for my actions to anyone who might read this journal.
The main issue is the fact that ever since I was a small kid I’ve used my computer as an entertainment device and of course as a way of coping with real life events. It’s easy to just dive into the happy world of endless entertainment instead of processing and dealing with things that are real and difficult. This is what I want to change most, to turn this device from some kind of emotional crutch into a pure productivity tool. I want to get enjoyment out of other things besides this rectangle on my table.
Goals for next week:
- Always have a productive reason for using the internet (no reddit, youtube, rss feeds, news)
- Don’t use the computer for entertainment
- Check RSS feeds on Sunday at the earliest
Until next Sunday,