And that’s the end of my journal entry! See you in six weeks or whatever
I’m obviously joking, But at this point, it’s not that farfetched.
I don’t even know what to write. How should I start this?
Maybe by saying that I suck. But that’s too negative.
I could write about the progress that I’ve made? Hah. What progress?
A joke maybe? Nah.
The thing is: There is no answer.
Why? Because I don’t want to write this entry at all.
Was that beginning too negative? Yeah. But whatever. Sometimes you just have to vent a littie bit.
I posted my last update about two weeks ago. Two weeks, in which I’ve managed to get back into nearly every bad habit I ever had. These past two weeks were like a “who’s who” of terrible decisions. Not only NoSurf related; some general health related stuff as well. I’m shocked that a few months ago, I didn’t eat any sweets at all. At this point, this seems impossible to do again.
I’m sorry for being so negative. I like to think of myself as a positive and optimistic person. Giving advice to people and telling them to stay confident and give it their all. However, I’m better at being optimistic for other people, than for myself.
I’m really not sure how to strcuture this post. Is it possible to structure a post like this? Normally, I give every goal I have its’ own paragraph. You know what? I’m gonna try this:
This is the first thing I’ve written in the last two weeks.
I still spend the majority of my time at university and I manage to complete all the necessary assignments (with good grades as well!). But I’ve recently notives that a majority of my time is spent doing nothing and talking to friends. Of the approximately 7 hours I spend at university everyday, about 2 hours of that time are spent doing something actually productive.
Working out/Staying fit
Staying off YouTube and Spotify
Were there other goals I had? Who knows at this point.
This feels like the lowest point I’ve ever been at. I honestly can’t remeber when I felt worse about my progress in life.
So, what’s the plan? To try it again, I guess. Is there anything else I could do? Probably. But I’m not sure.
The funny thing is, if I would’ve seen someone else on here write a post like this, I would’ve written a gigantic post where I’d tell them to not give up and try again. But as I’ve said:
I’m better at being optimistic for other people, than for myself.
I need a break.