Hey guys, I’m Ramirez. I haven’t been here in a while and I don’t even know if this is the proper place to post this but here goes.
A few months ago, I wrote my success story on these forums to which I received some really nice and thoughtful replies. It felt great being “successful”. I’m ashamed to admit that didn’t last very long. I relapsed. My addictive behavior isn’t not as bad as it used to be. However, I have to be honest with myself and you guys because I can hardly call myself successfull anymore. I have had days where I spent my entire time surfing. I hardly got anything done. I didn’t think much of it at first. I kept saying that it isn’t as bad as what it used to be and so it’s okay to let one or two days slip although recently, I have had entire days where I would just sit in front of screens doing nothing but surfing when I could’ve been doing something much more productive. My status as a grade A student is getting harder and harder to maintain.
I think this is a good first step. To let it all out there because I have been lying to myself a lot of times saying I don’t have a problem with surfing anymore but I can’t keep saying that when there’s obviously an underlying problem that keeps popping up. I guess this is to also tell you guys that wherever you are with nosurf, don’t lose sight of what you learned and what you’re in here for because I have turned a blind eye to that for a long time and now I’m back here again. Enough is enough and it’s time to take care of things again. I really just wanted to let this all out so thank you for reading, whoever you are, and good luck to both me and you.