Hey @magis, not sure how often you visit here anymore but I hope you return soon and give us an update on how you are doing. Even if you aren’t doing well, that’s not something to be ashamed of. All problems can be solved with a good action plan and some effort.
It’s really inspiring how ambitious you are with your goals but as I can see with your more recent posts, sometimes we bite off much more than we can chew. The journey to becoming an extremely productive and healthy person doesn’t happen all at once. Rather it’s a bunch of little baby steps over a long period of time (often years).
In moments like this, it’s good to get clear about what you really want. Most people can only work towards 1-3 major lifestyle changes at a time. Anything more than that usually means things just get messy and stressful. Assuming your top priority right now is getting good grades in school, I’ll let you know that you don’t need to meditate, wake up at 6AM every morning (though getting sleep is important in general), exercise everyday, read “just for fun” in your spare time, or achieve complete emotional/physical oneness in order to get good grades.
You just need to master the art of retaining information, get really clear about what your teacher’s expectations are, and then just plain sit down and do the work. Everything else is just an after thought. Seems like you achieve this best by working at the library (I’m the same), committing to a healthy sleep routine (also same), and then sticking to a NoSurf lifestyle (same again…). Make those 3 tasks your top priority and then drop everything else. Once you’ve mastered those things, then you can reintroduce meditation, exercise, and the rest gradually. For example, just start with 5 minutes of mediation per day and 10 minutes of at-home cardio (jumping jacks, squat jumps, burpees etc.). Once you’ve mastered that, then you can set yourself up for bigger goals once again.
It’s good to be ambitious. You just need to be really strategic about it and commit to growing slowly rather than all at once. If you develop yourself slowly, the changes are much more likely to last as well.
I hope to hear from you again soon